Half of You

"how can i give you all of me, when all i get is half of you." -Half of You by Varsity Fanclub.

do you ever feel like the person you're with is holding back, being cautious, and unwilling to fully let you in? and that the reasons behind it have nothing to actually do with you, but rather with someone who came before you? we all get hurt at some point in our lives, but that shouldn't hold us back from stepping back out there with a brave face and open heart. how can you expect someone to be completely open to you when you're building barrier after barrier. and it's pushing me away. i'm trying to be understanding and patient, but how much longer do you expect me to stay like this.. i'm so done with being on&off with you. it feels like every time we take one step forward, you take two steps back. i can't make this work on my own; i need to know that this is what you truly want too. if it's not, be honest with me now. please stop playing with my heart.. be fair with me, be honest with yourself. i really want to be with you.. i like you just as you are, you're all i can think about, and being around you always makes me happy.. but if you still aren't over what happened in your past and just aren't ready for this, i understand. i know it takes time to heal all things. i just can't let things stay the way they are now..

i don't care about titles, or even full commitment. i don't have to be the only girl you care for. i just want to know if i'm the one you care about the most.. if i'm the one you find yourself thinking about more than the others.. i'm not asking for too much.. not even all of your heart at this point.. i just want to know if i'm even really in it.