distracted

ever feel like everything's off-centered, as if the entire world changed the direction it revolved over night? most days, i consider myself to be a morning person. i used to enjoy waking up before 8am because it was always peaceful and for the most part, silent. but lately, when i wake up, i feel different.. unsure if everything that happened last night was real.. and it's like any progress made throughout the day that climaxed at night completely restarts when i wake up. i can't focus when it's silent anymore either. i can't remember the last day i went without listening to any music at all. it's frustrating, mainly because i have no idea when this change began nor how to reverse it. so what's the game plan? i'm going back to the basics. i figure if i get back into my element(s) and surround myself with the familiar and comforting, the world will righten itself overnight again. i know that sounds pretty ridiculous, but what do you do when you get lost? you try to be found.
what are my basics? in no particular order:
1. the addiction of music
2. insatiable thirst for literature
3. the arts of self-expression
4. the infamous love interest
5. faith and beliefs
6. health and well-being

if i can re-focus on those basics, maybe things will start falling back into place. i'm tired of this disoriented feeling; it's mentally and physically exhausting.

i wish i could read your mind. i wish that i could know what you really think of me.i wish i knew how you really felt about me. i wish we had better communication. i wish you could read my mind.

-jenesis